January Recap // my life is One Big Mess, it’s #20GayTeen and I’m back from my hiatus I think?? (also RESTORE ME!!!)

Hey what’s up, it’s been a while! [whenever I say this I’ve got Zayn’s song in my head but I don’t think anyone here gets the reference]

Well, as the title of this post suggests, I am back from the dead (again).

I was literally so motivated to start posting again when I wrote my December Recap, but then life happened and hit me in the face like a brick, and I wasn’t READY to have all these responsibilities thrown at me out of NOWhERe.

me trying to dodge school work, exams, blogging, writing, nervous breakdowns, panic, stress, anxiety and anything else that was trying to get my attention in January

My recap ended up being the only post I wrote in January dkhgdk I’M SORRY.

I’m not one to constantly abandon my blog, go on random unannounced hiatuses and post inconsistently, but it has been happening a lot lately AND I HATE IT.

I desperately hope think that I finally regained my blogging mojo though and I’m excited to see what February brings I MEAN IT’S THE MONTH OF LOVE AFTER ALL *yuck*

For now, please enjoy reading about my 5 nervous breakdowns :)))))

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Mini Reviews: Cinder, Blue is the Warmest Color and Unfiltered // I read so many good books recently!!

I have recently read and enjoyed various books and I loved them so much that I feel the need to share them with you!

But instead of writing the longest reviews (usually like 500 1k 2k words) that end up being rambly and all over the place, I decided I’d write some cute and short mini reviews to share my thoughts (and love) for these books!

The other reason may be that I’m too lazy/busy/exhausted to write said long and extensive reviews hehe and I didn’t take notes while reading (which I only ever do for books that I HAVE to review aka ARCs) so I don’t really have that many thoughts on these anyway.

And I have the worst memory lol. So no notes = short reviews because Jackie’s brain isn’t capable of remebering things long-term.

I am the real-life Dory

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Hello friends and welcome to my stop on the The Tiger’s Watch Tour!!! I’m so so so excited to be participating in this tour and being able to promote such a great book!

If you’ve been following me for a while you might remember that I mentioned The Tiger’s Watch in my #ARCstravaganza post a few months ago and I TOTALLY FREAKED OUT ABOUT IT BC JULIA EMBER HERSELF SENT ME THE BOOK.

AND IT’S JULIA EMBER!!! THE WOMAN WHO WROTE UNICORN TRACKS AND THE SEAFARER’S KISS (I haven’t read either of them but I know that they’re brilliant).

So when I heard she’d come out with a book about a genderfluid main character???? I KNEW I HAD TO GET MY HANDS ON IT.

Please enjoy my review and check out the giveaway below! It’s international!!!

You can follow the rest of the tour here. Continue reading “The Tiger’s Watch by Julia Ember // A GENDERFLUID CHARACTER WHO HAS A SPIRITUAL BOND WITH AN ANIMAL? SIGN ME UP + Giveaway”

#ARCstravaganza: The Tiger’s Watch

Look at me! I am finally participating in the new #ARCstravaganza meme! I’ve been meaning to do so ever since Krysti and Sarah announced it but I kept forgetting about it! Whew, thank god I finally remembered 😛

#ARCstravaganza is a weekly meme hosted by YA and Wine to give book bloggers/bookstagrammers a chance to show off the ARCs/eARCs they are excited about! Comment on their weekly posts with a link to your own #ARCstravaganza blog post, or post a picture on Instagram using the #ARCstravaganza hashtag, and you will be entered to win an ARC copy of an upcoming YA novel! One winner will be chosen at random each month.

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Waiting on Wednesday: 27 Hours by Tristina Wright – go preorder this book!!!

Since I am skipping this week’s Top 5 Wednesday, I decided to highlight one of my most anticipated releases of 2017! And since Wednesday is “Meme-Day” here on Too Much of a Book Nerd – lol not really, I just made that up – I decided to turn this into a Waiting on Wednesday post!

Waiting on Wednesday is hosted by Jill @ Breaking the Spine. It is a weekly meme that spotlights upcoming book releases that you’re eagerly anticipating.


As I said before, the following book is one of my MOST HIGHLY ANTICIPATED RELEASES this year!!!! You might have heard of it before, or you haven’t. But that’s cool because I am here and I’m about to share it with you!

Anddddd the book is called……………

*drum roll please*

27 Hours by Tristina Wright

And if you’re wondering: “Jackie, why is this one of your most anticipated releases this year?????” BOY, LET ME TELL YOU 😀

This is a book for the QUEER KIDS! 27 Hours has absolutely zero, niente, nada, no straight characters!!! Woooo!!! The rep in this book is really damn great – we have a-, bi- and pansexuals, people of colour and disabled characters! LIKE WHAAAAT?! And this is a SFF book! Queer teens in space, what more could you want? And apparently this is a very fast-paced and action-packed story with incredible writing! AND it is part of a series! YESSSS!

This book has it all AND I AM TOTALLY HERE FOR IT!!!!!!!!!!!

But enough talking from me, let’s check out the synopsis below!

“Rumor Mora fears two things: hellhounds too strong for him to kill, and failure. Jude Welton has two dreams: for humans to stop killing monsters, and for his strange abilities to vanish.

But in no reality should a boy raised to love monsters fall for a boy raised to kill them.

Nyx Llorca keeps two secrets: the moon speaks to her, and she’s in love with Dahlia, her best friend. Braeden Tennant wants two things: to get out from his mother’s shadow, and to unlearn Epsilon’s darkest secret.

They’ll both have to commit treason to find the truth.

During one twenty-seven-hour night, if they can’t stop the war between the colonies and the monsters from becoming a war of extinction, the things they wish for will never come true, and the things they fear will be all that’s left.

27 Hours is a sweeping, thrilling story featuring a stellar cast of queer teenagers battling to save their homes and possibly every human on Sahara as the clock ticks down to zero.”

Now, if I have helped you jump on the aweseomeness wagon that is 27 Hours and you’re thinking: “Wow, Jackie! Thanks for sharing this wonderfully queer masterpiece of a book with us! Where can I order it?”

HAVE NO FEAR, MY FRIENDS! MAMA JACKIE AIN’T PLAYING GAMES! I don’t even know what I’m saying lol DON’T MIND ME but rather check out all the preorder links down below!

Goodreads / Amazon US / Amazon UK / Barnes & Noble 

Add it to your Goodreads TBR by simply clicking the button:

27 Hours (The Nightside Saga, #1)

The book is being released on October 3rd 2017 – still so far away *cries* – but thank god for the pre-order option, am I right?

And if you’re wondering… NO, this post is NOT sponsored and I wasn’t asked to do this or whatever. I am just GENUINELY PUMPED FOR THIS RELEASE BECAUSE I HAVE A FEELING IT’S GOING TO BE AWESOME! And I wanted to promote it and get the word out there! So please, if you get the chance, buy/preorder this fabulous book!

Thanks for reading!


What do you think of this book? Are you going to put it on your TBR? Or preorder it? Which book(s) are you highly anticipating this year? Let’s chat in the comments!

Make sure to answer my poll and help me choose a name for my new blog segment/feature/meme!

Most Anticipated Book Releases – May 2017

Since April is coming to an end (whaaat?) and May will bless us with some great new books, I thought I’d share my favourite/most highly anticipated releases for the month of May with you!

*click on the book covers to be directed to the Goodreads page*ACOWAR

A Court of Wings and Ruin – Sarah J. Maas:

I feel like this one is on EVERYONE’S list! It comes out in a few days and I honestly can’t wait! I’ve only read ACOTAR and I’m currently reading ACOMAF for the first time but I am so obsessed!

BY THE WAY…… I am OUTRAGED!!!!!! APPARENTLY MY COPY OF ACOWAR WON’T BE HERE UNTIL THE 9TH OF MAY!!! :OOOOOO So, I’ll probably avoid all social media until I’ve actually read it because I don’t want to be spoiled for this one!!!

Release Day: May 2nd 2017



When Dimple Met Rishi – Sandhya Menon

I have been waiting for this book for MONTHS and I honestly can’t believe it will be here soon!!!! The end of May can’t come fast enough! It’s about two Indian-American teens whose parents have arranged for them to be married. It’s supposed to be a super sweet and adorable and genuinely funny YA novel and I can’t wait to read it! And isn’t that just the cutest cover EVER!!! 😀

Release Day: May 30th 2017


Noteworthy – Riley Redgate

I’ve only seen very few people talk about this book but I heard amazing things about it and I’m quite excited for it to be released! This is a coming of age contemporary novel about a cappella and college and it’s #ownvoices! The MC is Chinese and bisexual and it’s generally a very diverse book that discusses important topics like sexuality, gender etc. You should totally check it out once it releases!

Release Day: May 2nd 2017



The Love Interest – Cale Dietrich

This is a story about teenage spies (which ALREADY makes me want to read it!!!!). Two boys are competing for a girl and she has to choose between the two of them. Whoever the girl doesn’t choose will die. Do I even need to say more???!?!

Release Day: May 16th 2017



The Seafarer’s Kiss –  Julia Ember

This is a bisexual, f/f retelling of The Little Mermaid and WHO DOESN’T LOVE A GOOD MERMAID STORY?!?! A Goodreads review said that this story is about “Ursula outwitting Loki to save the woman she loves” and I was SOLD. Can’t wait to finally read this one!

Release Day: May 4th 2017



Flame in the Mist – Renee Ahdieh

How could I write a post like this and NOT mention Flame in the Mist!!! This is a Mulan retelling or at least has some similarities to Mulan and if that doesn’t make you want to read the book then I don’t know what will!!!

Release Day: May 16th 2017



Thanks for reading!

Jackie x

What are some of your favourite/most highly anticipated May releases? Are any of them on my list? And if they aren’t, please let me know which ones you’re excited about and give me some more recs!!! 😀

Favorite LGBTQ+ Reads

I’m back with another Top 5 Wednesday post! Top 5 Wednesday is a weekly meme hosted by Samantha and Lainey over on YouTube. Each week there is a new book-related topic to answer! If you’re new to Top 5 Wednesday and want to participate, check out the Goodreads group for information and weekly topics!

This week’s topic is Favorite LGBTQ Reads – Talk about your favorite books that feature LGBTQ+ characters or are by LGBTQ+ authors.

I’d just like to note that this post is severely outdated (it’s one of the first few posts I’ve ever published) which is why some of the answer may be seen as “cliché”. I’ll hopefully be making another post like this including some newer LGBTQ+ releases soon.

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Mini Review: Unknown Horizons by CJ Birch | Spoiler Free

Unknown HorizonsTitle: Unknown Horizons (New Horizons #1)

Author: CJ Birch

Genre: Science Fiction

Published: April 18th 2017 by Bold Strokes Books

Pages: 240

*I received an ARC from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review. This doesn’t affect my opinion in any way!*

(via Goodreads): “The moment Lieutenant Alison Ash steps aboard the Persephone, she knows her life will never be the same. She will never again watch the sun rise over the asteroid belt, never again see Earth from a handheld telescope, and never again see her family.

In less than three weeks, the ship will dock at the Posterus and begin the most important journey humankind has ever undertaken. More important than discovering fire, creating language, or even abandoning Earth to live confined in biospheres among the asteroid belt over 100 years ago.

What Ash doesn’t expect is that by keeping her recent memory loss a secret she is
jeopardizing not only the Persephone’s mission but humankind’s launch of the first ever generational ship. Nor does she anticipate her attraction to Captain Jordan Kellow, but both will change her life forever.”

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This was an okay read.

When I read the synopsis I was quite intrigued! I don’t usually read Sci-Fi stories but this one had a great, interesting concept and it sounded really exciting but I was a little disappointed.

At the beginning we don’t really get a real introduction to the world. All I know is that they live somewhere in space. But why? Why can’t they live on earth anymore? What happened? And where exactly do they live now? How did they get there? How many people live there? And are there other people? How many? Whaaat?


As you can see I had many questions and most of them were left unanswered. At the end of the book we get to know a little bit more about the why’s and about other people. I still don’t know the reason for why they can’t live on earth anymore. Personally, I needed a bit more world building and more explanations!

The concept of the whole memory loss thing was very intriguing and it got quite exciting when we find out why it happens! The story became very fast-paced and I was immersed in it!

With only 240 pages this was a very quick read in general! The chapters were short-ish and it was easy to read.

I didn’t really feel connected to the characters though. They felt flat to me and I couldn’t relate or symphasize with any of them. There was a lesbian romance between the Lieutenant and the Captain which I was excited about and it could have been really good! Unfortunately, it just seemed flat and unexplored to me. We don’t really get to see much of it until the last part of the book.

Also, it ends on a major cliffhanger which left me very confused? I don’t think you could even call it a cliffhanger because it was just such a weird way to end the story!!! I feel like it could have used a few more lines for it to really make sense! This is the first part of a series (?) and I might have to pick up the sequel just to settle my confusion 😀

⭐⭐⭐ (3 out of 5 stars maybe 2.5, I can’t decide)

Review: Future Leaders of Nowhere by Emily O’Beirne | 5 Stars | Spoiler Free

Future Leaders Of Nowhere

Title: Future Leaders of Nowhere

Author: Emily O’Beirne

Genre: YA, Contemporary, LGBTQ+

Published: March 15th 2017 by Ylva Publishing

Pages: 270

*Thanks so much to Ylva Publishing for contacting me and sending me a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review. This does not affect my opinion in any way!*

(via Goodreads): “Finn’s solid. Not in body, but in being. She’s gravity and kindness and all those good things that anchor.”

“Willa’s confusing. Sometimes she’s this sweet, sensitive soul. Other times she’s like a flaming arrow you hope isn’t coming for you.”

Finn and Willa have been picked as team leaders in the future leader camp game. The usually confident Finn doesn’t know what’s throwing her more, the fact she’s leading a team of highly unenthusiastic overachievers or coming up against fierce, competitive Willa. And Willa doesn’t know which is harder, leaving her responsibilities behind to pursue her goals or opening up to someone.

Soon they both realise that the hardest thing of all is balancing their clashing ideals with their unexpected connection. And finding a way to win, of course.“

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Future Leaders of Nowhere is about a leadership game which takes place in the Australian bush. In the camp game each group is assigned a political position; some are a democracy, a monarchy etc, some groups have resources like food and water and some rely on trade with other groups. Finn’s group is the one with no land, no resources and the ones seeking refugee. Every other day the camp guide gives them a scenario that affects the camps in a way ie. a storm that destroys the food cultivation and so on. These scenarios lead to changes that need to be made and alliances to be formed.

We follow the first half of the story from Finn’s point of view. I immediately took a liking to her after the first few chapters. She is funny, sassy and sarcastic. At her school, Finn is the intermediate captain. When the camp guide tells each group to choose a leader, Finn is the obvious choice for her team. He team mates are lazy shits but they trust her to make the right decisions for her team and get things done!

I loved the character development of Finn. At the beginning of Survival Camp (that’s what I’m going to call it lol) she feels very lonely and misplaced as her parents at home are fighting and she believes they are close to a divorce. She blames herself for it and these thoughts make her feel unsure of herself and she doesn’t feel like being the right person to lead her group.

As the story moves along and Finn and her team are faced with different challenges. While working as a team to solve these problems and meeting and getting to know Willa, she changes for the better. Finn said herself that she has turned into her old self again, the one she was before the almost-divorce of her parents. She becomes more confident and determined, she makes smart choices that help her team and she starts to believe in things AND herself again.

I also really like how the group dynamic changes. At the beginning everyone is very lazy and doesn’t feel like being part of the camp since they don’t really know each other or why they’re there. But they learn how to deal with their situation and start working together towards the goal of winning (even if they don’t know WHAT they’re going to win lol) and it binds them together.

Around the middle of the book the point of view changes and we see the story through Willa’s eyes. I didn’t really know what to think of Willa when we get to know her through Finn’s eyes but I really liked her after experiencing the story from her point of view.

Willa is the leader of another group in the Survival Camp. She was describes by Finn and her group as very intense and fierce, composed and a follower of rules, and sometimes even shy and innocent. Willa sticks to the game and her group but within the group she minds her own business. She distances herself from the others and doesn’t really share information about herself.

Willa is also going through some major character development. She used to be very distanced and composed, although always standing up for herself and others and  not taking shit from disrespectful boys (cough Drew, cough), but she still kept to herself. She was a combination of quiet, tough, genius girl. By the end of the book Willa has really opened up to the other girls in her group and learned how to rely on others and not just do everything alone! She found new friends in her team mates and members of other groups.

I loved how the relationship between Willa and Finn evolved.

Her and Finn coincidentally met at a clearing in the woods (I think?) one morning and agreed to meet there every morning and just sit and talk to each other. The only rule they have is not to talk about the game, strategics etc. Over the course of the game they share some private thoughts and they really get to know each other.

They’re both very strong personalities but completely different from each other. But still they fit together perfectly and they were really sweet together. The development of their relationship felt very realistic, it’s like the feelings for the other person creeped up on both of them and they didn’t realise they were slowly falling for each other. It was so sweet.

The writing flowed nicely and the chapters were short so it was very easy to read and breeze through this book! And I generally loved the whole idea of the survival camp. I kind of imagined the setting of the movie The Parent Trap with the camps and everything! I didn’t know what to think when I went into the book and I definitely didn’t expect to love it this much!

The one thing I really loved about this book was the diversity! Obviously we have Finn and Willa as LGBTQ+ characters but there’s also some PoC (we only really get to know the people from Finn’s group because that’s who we follow throughout most of the story). Craig’s dad is Polynesian, Jessie (a very sweet and funny character) is Chinese, we have the two inseperable best friends Hana and Zaki who are both muslim and Willa who is half-Indian.

I loved how it was “slipped in” so casually and naturally and how the characters weren’t portayed like something extraordinary or “exotic” (which happens in some books, ugh, I hate when it’s like being sensationalized). This was a very pleasant read and what I’m looking for in a diverse book!

Future Leaders of Nowhere is a book that is most importantly about friendship and teamwork with a sweet LGBTQ+ romance, loads of diverse characters and some kickass female leaders and group members who are all about girl power.

⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ (5 out of 5 stars)

Review: Hold My Hand by A.C. Oswald | Spoiler Free

*I received a free ARC from the publisher via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review*

Hold My HandTitle: Hold My Hand

Author: A.C. Oswald

Genre: YA, LGBTQA+

Published: March 1st 2017 by Ylva Publishing

Pages: 187

(via Goodreads): Bethany is heartbroken when her girlfriend, Savannah, dumps her with no explanation. Slowly, she rebuilds her life, meets Amber and begins to heal.
A year later they meet again and their feelings are as strong as ever. So why did Savannah leave her?
Bethany is devastated by the answer and realises she will lose Savannah again – to cancer.
In a world where time is fleeting but love lasts forever, Savannah and Bethany can only hold onto each other and live every dream they ever shared.

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This story is about Savannah who leaves Bethany, her girlfriend of 5 years, one day for no apparent reason. They meet again a year later and Beth finds out that Savannah has been hiding the fact that she has cancer. Bethany wants to make Savannah’s last months as enjoyable as possible and they live every day together like it’d be their last.

At first, I didn’t really know where the story was going and I wasn’t sure if I was going to like it. It was a tiny bit slow paced for me but once the story picked up it turned into your typical adventurous/fulfill your bucket list/last wish type of story and it was very sweet.

I thought Savannah was a bit unreasonable for not telling Beth about her cancer. They have been together for 5 years and known each other since high school. Bethany was Savannah’s one true love, and the other way round, but instead of just telling her that she had cancer, Savannah broke up with Beth. She wasted and sacrificed an entire good year of hers, living miserably and alone even though she still loved Beth. She not only hurt Beth with that decision but also herself. It just didn’t make sense to me.

Bethany is a very sweet girl. When she finds out about Savannah’s cancer she does everything in her power to make life fun again for her. Savannah had given up after she left Beth, she was depressed and lonely and she thought she would die alone. But Beth completely changes her perspective and makes life worth living. It was sweet how Bethany tried her best to accomplish everything that Savannah had ever wished for.

The romance between Beth and Savannah felt real. I caught myself comparing the story and relationship to The Fault In Our Stars at times but I felt like in TFIOS it was overly sensationalized and dramatic. The author definitely made Hold My Hand feel more realistic. You could actually imagine it happening in real life and it made me realise that a lot of people actually do go through this every day.

If you read between the lines you could really tell that the girls had a tight bond and developed a great, sweet love. It felt true-to-life. Sometimes it was a little too cheesy for my taste, though.

I also wasn’t a fan of the very explicit sex scenes in the story. I didn’t really see the point and they didn’t contribute anything to the story. I would have preferred if they had just been left out to be honest.

For whatever reason, I wasn’t too attached to the characters so I didn’t cry or felt overly emotional about the story or the ending but I still liked it. This book wasn’t anything too spectacular and rather average but it was simple and had a sweet love story.

⭐⭐⭐.5  (3.5 out of 5 stars)

Jackie x