I’m struggling… // A very personal post about why I don’t enjoy blogging, my struggles with anxiety + why I need a BREAK (aka this is a rambly mess)

Do y’all know that video of the girl who got a speeding ticket and then she has a full emotional breakdown because “her life is going extremely downhill”. Because that is EXACTLY how I feel right now.

I honestly don’t even know how else to introduce this post.

This is basically just going to be me rambling about my life and everything that is going wrong at this very moment.

I’m in a pretty bad mental state, I could not care less about blogging right now, I lack any and all motivation to study for my exam and my reading mojo is off. I usually don’t talk about my struggles on my blog, but I’m tired and I just want to be honest with y’all.

So here we are.

I’m a little nervous to post this, but I just really needed to get these things off my chest and I hope you guys understand where I’m coming from.

Sit down and grab a snack because this is going to be rambly personal AF.

Continue reading “I’m struggling… // A very personal post about why I don’t enjoy blogging, my struggles with anxiety + why I need a BREAK (aka this is a rambly mess)”

2018 Goals // Keep Up with my TBR, Work on my WIP, Self-Care (!!!) and tracking my Habits

Have you ever set yourself New Year’s Resolutions and abandonded them two weeks into the new year?

Yeah. I think we can all relate.

I planned to do a 2018 goals post at the very beginning of the year so I could easily go back to it and hold myself accountable for actually keeping up with them.

As you can probably tell, I already failed that task.

I planned to abandon this post altogether because it seemed pretty pointless to post it when we’re already two months into the year. However, it is NEVER too late to set yourself some goals for the year so here I am.

you may have seen Swetlana’s post from last week about her 2018 reading goals which PROVES that it’s not too late!

Let’s hope I’ll actually stick to these goals instead of abandoning them like I do every year.

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December Recap // Christmas celebrations, fangirl mania and SO MANY BOOKS!

I know we’re already in the middle of January, but December was too good of a month for me.

It was Christmas and I got the best presents from family (BOOKS), friends (BOOKS) and myself (BOOKS). And yes, buying yourself Christmas presents is a thing because you can never have enough books.

December was also my best reading month of the year??? And I just barely* reached my unofficial goal of reading 100 books in 2017??? PHEW.

And what kind of fangirl would I be if I didn’t find a ton of new things to obsess about this month.

Bi the way!!! Don’t forget to enter my *INTERNATIONAL* giveaway which ends next week ahhhh!

*I literally read two comics books 30 minutes before 2018 began!

Continue reading “December Recap // Christmas celebrations, fangirl mania and SO MANY BOOKS!”

November Recap // not much reading, even less writing and a huge existential crisis + MY FAV AUTHOR TWEETED ME???

What is reading??? What is writing??? What is blogging??? What is life???

What. Even. Was. November.

I don’t think I’ve ever had such a bad reading month. In the first 3 weeks of November, I didn’t even pick up a single book for myself aka I only forced myself through the four tragic/average/trashy/boring books I had to read for uni.

My poor bookshelves were wailing for my attention, begging me to PLEASE JUST PICK OUT A SINGLE BOOK TO READ WE MISS YOU

But my brain was like NUH-UH you’re doing NaNo, you have to focus on WRITING.

Well, guess who didn’t do any writing either?????? Me.

can i take a nap for the next two months pls

Things got better at the end of the month BUT I’M STILL IN THIS WEIRD FUNK WHERE EVERYTHING I DO IS EXHAUSTING.

I don’t want to make my intro too depressing, but be prepared for an enourmous existentital crisis including lots of crying, exhaustion, flailing of arms and MAYBE a handful of good things that happened to me.

PS. HOW IS IT DECEMBER ALREADY IT’S BASICALLY CHRISTMAS AKA 2018 AKA CAN WE NOT IT’S GIVING ME ANXIETY

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October Wrap Up aka the best month of the year!!! // birthday celebrations, some fangirling and SO MANY good books!!!

October has been an absolutely brilliant month for me. I am genuinely just SO HAPPY about everything that’s happened!!!

The first thing that needs to be mentioned is my return to blogging (which I’m still SO excited about!)—I still suck at blog hopping and commenting back on time but things are looking up! And I really enjoy writing blog posts again which is wonderful!

Secondly, I’ve read so many great books this month and I actively tried to read books that I was in the mood for, books on my physical TBR that I’ve been meaning to read for YEARS AKA SIX OF CROWS BITCHEEEESSSSS, and Netgalley ARCs that I’ve been wanting to knock off my shelves!

Thirdly, I’ve done some fantastic prepping and plotting for my novel and I feel ready to tackle NaNoWriMo………. is what I wish I could say. But no. That didn’t happen.

Fourthly (is that even a thing), I went to two concerts which made me SO FREAKING HAPPY and I also feel very happy and confident in general. I had WAY LESS anxiety this month than I had all year and I’m just so HAPPY lately. I’m kicking anxiety’s ass ❤

It’s just been an overall fantastic month and I’m super happy. October has probably been my favourite month all year! Continue reading “October Wrap Up aka the best month of the year!!! // birthday celebrations, some fangirling and SO MANY good books!!!”

Versatile Blogger Award – 7 Facts about me

DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO COME UP WITH 7 FACTS ABOUT YOURSELF??????????? V E R Y HARD, LET ME TELL YOU!

But I managed – woohoo – applause for Jackie!

I was nominated for the Versatile Blogger Award by the lovely Des over at Des’ Random Thoughts! Definitely head over there and check out which awesome facts about herself she has shared with us! She definitely did better than me XD And don’t forget to click that follow button! Continue reading “Versatile Blogger Award – 7 Facts about me”

Fierce Fangirl Friday – NEW FEATURE LAUNCH

MY NEW EXCLUSIVE WEEKLY MEME IS FINALLY HERE!!!!!

Welcome to my very first Fierce Fangirl Friday! 🙂

Fierce Fangirl Friday is a weekly meme hosted by YOURS TRULY *puffs out chest* where you have the opportunity to do some healthy fangirling on your blog!

If you’re a fangirl you might be familiar with the feeling of getting overly excited about things, forgetting all about grammar and punctuation and suddenly starting to write in all caps when geeking out over something that you love dearly!

So, whenever you have something, anything to fangirl about – whether it be a book, TV show, music, celebrities, your pet, the universe, finding your soulmate or just a recent meal that you’ve had – Fierce Fangirl Friday is your opportunity to do so! 

It doesn’t matter if it’s a recent obsession of yours or something you’ve been loving for a while!

All I ask of you is that you PINGBACK to me! Basically, just copy the link of any of my FFF posts and use it in your Fierce Fangirl Friday posts when tagging me! 🙂 That way I won’t miss anyone’s posts!!!

You are free to do this weekly, bi-weekly, monthly or simply whenever you feel like you need to fangirl about something 😀 

I will also have a linky thing at the end of every Friday’s post where people can link-up their posts so everyone can do some blog-hopping! 😀 I have decided to do a weekly recap instead where I showcase everyone’s posts in my newest FFF post!

This meme is happening on Fridays but if you can’t make a Friday, DON’T WORRY! Just do it whenever you can!!!!

I’d just like to take this moment to thank one of my bestest blogger friends I’ve made on here: Bella @ A Bookish Belle ❤️ She has been enduring my ramblings, questions and insecurities about this meme, she has helped me come up with different name ideas and just generally reassured me that it’s a cool idea and that my graphic looks nice and just calmed my nervous and insecure mind. If you guys aren’t following her, go do that right now! She’s total Warnette trash like me and she has converted me to Feysand trash! And she is my literal Fangirl partner in crime! 💜

And if you’re wondering: “Jackie, what exactly does fangirling even mean?”

WELL! I feel like the Urban Dictionary definition is quite accurate! :’)

fangirling:

1. the reaction a fangirl has to any mention or sighting of the object of her “affection”. These reactions include shortness of breath, fainting, highpitched noises, shaking, fierce headhaking as if in the midst of a seizure, wet panties, endless blog posts, etc.

2. a gathering of two or more fangirls in which they proceed to waste endless amounts of time ogling, discussing/arguing, stalking, etc. the object of their “affection” 

If you have experienced any of the “symptoms” mentioned above, Fierce Fangirl Friday is the meme for you!!! 😀

If you have any more unanswered questions, feel free to comment them down below!


NOW ONTO THE FANGIRLING PART (oh wow this is going to be my favourite part of every week!!!!!)

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Feel free to use this graphic in your posts!!!

HARRY STYLES RELEASED HIS NEW ALBUM TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!

It’s self-titled so it’s literally Harry Styles by Harry Styles. Iconic.

It’s my sister’s birthday today so I bought her the Vinyl! And the CD is for myself 😛

Obviously, as a former #1 One Direction fan from back in the days, all of the boys still have a special place in my heart. But I’ve just been particularly excited for Harry’s new music because his taste in music is so great and I knew his music would be really damn great as well.

I looovvveeee music from the 80’s, like that typical Rock ‘N Roll kind of music – David Bowie, Prince – I’M OBSESSED! And Harry’s new album is totally inspired by the 80’s while still being his own thing and I absolutely love it!!!!

And yes, I did stay up until midnight to hear HARRY STYLES by Harry Styles (I’ll never get tired of saying that!!!!) with my other dear Twitter friends and it was SO DAMN COOL. I still have my One Direction Twitter account with like 14K followers which I use quite regularly.

I always feel like Hannah Montana when switching between my book Twitter and my I-love-Harry-Styles Twitter account hahaha! 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀

But if anyone wants to follow me on there and see me freak out over Harry, leave me a comment 😛

ANYWAY. LET’S TALK ABOUT THE MASTERPIECE OF AN ALBUM, SHALL WE?

There is not a single song that I don’t like!!!! I might be biased because I’ve loved Harry for like 7 YEARS lol BUT THEY’RE ALL SO GOOD!

Sign of the Times was SUCH A GOOD DEBUT SINGLE – I swear the whole world was in love with it. And then he released Sweet Creature AND IT WAS SUCH A CUTE AND ADORABLE LIL SONG IT ALWAYS MADE ME SMILE AND GRIN AND FEEL ALL HAPPY AND GIDDY!!!!

But now that I’ve heard the whole album…… Boy, oh boy.

My top 2 are definitely Woman and From the Dining Table. ❤

Woman is such a classic rock song (it’s also a Snapchat filter!!!) and I LOVE JAMMING OUT TO IT. AND BOTH ONLY ANGEL AND KIWI ARE ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE REALLY COOL ROCK SONGS!!!! I LOVE!!!!! 😀

From the Dining Table makes me cry EVERY. DAMN. TIME. Something about it just hits me right in the feels and I start sobbing. And it’s TOTALLY A SONG THAT COULD BE PLAYED IN ONE OF THOSE TYPICAL ROMANTIC COMEDIES – BRIDGET JONES, NOTTING HILL, LOVE ACTUALLY – I’M SO HERE FOR IT!!!!!

And I still can’t believe the album is actually HERE! We’ve been anticipating it for so long and then it was April and Harry announced his new single and album and TOUR.

APROPOS TOUR.

I WILL BE SEEING MY BOY HARRY IN OCTOBER!!!!!!!! I WAS ONE OF THOSE LUCKY 111,379 PEOPLE IN THE WORLD WHO GOT TICKETS TO ONE OF HIS SHOWS!

AND GUESS FUCKING WHAT! THE SHOW IS 2 DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY. 2 DAYS. WHAT. IS THAT NOT A REALLY FREAKIN’ GREAT PRESENT LIKE HARRY REALLY DID THAT.

Yes. Anyway. Enough freaking out for now.

Listen to the album if you’re into 80’s classic rock/pop, or just really want to hear some good music 😛


That’s it for Fierce Fangirl Friday today! I really, really hope you enjoy this meme and have fun with it! And make sure to spread the word! I hope as many people as possible participate in this! FANGIRLS (and fanboys as well!) UNITE!!!!! 😀

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT SO FAR! IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, SUGGESTIONS, PROBLEMS LET ME KNOW! 😀

So, feel free to join in next week! I’m so excited to see what everyone else will be fangirling about!

Thanks for reading!

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What do you think about my new weekly meme? Are you a fangirl yourself? Have you listened to Harry’s new album yet? Which songs are your favourites? Let’s chat in the comments!

Credit for the graphics in my FFF logo: Spiderman / Avengers / Disney Princesses / Books

Blogger Recognition Award

BLOGGER RECIOGN AWARD

Hello there, my dear friends!

I am skipping this week’s Top Ten Tuesday because I’ve done a similar topic for the ‘Things That Make Me Want To Read A Book’-topic 2 weeks ago so check that out if you’re interested in seeing what I’d like to see more in books!

I was nominated for the Blogger Recognition Award! Zuky @ the BookBum tagged me A LONG TIME AGO and I finally got around to it! I was also tagged by Lois @ Lois Reads Books recently. Thank you both so much for this! You know the drill, if you have never heard of neither Zuky nor Lois, you better go click those two links RIGHT NOW and follow them! They’re amazing

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  • Thank the blogger who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  • Give a brief story of how your blog started.
  • Give two pieces of advice to new bloggers.
  • Select 10 other bloggers you want to give this award to.
  • Comment on each blog and let them know you have nominated them and provide the link to the post you created.

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Umm, let’s see….. The idea of having a blog has been playing around in my mind for quite a while – weeks, if not months before I created Too Much of a Book Nerd! I was very into makeup but also books and since I’m too shy (and scared lol) to have my own YouTube account, I decided a blog is the way to go! I was going to do a Makeup/Books crossover blog but eventually decided against it, as I am not makeup expert and pretty much just do whatever I want with it! 😀 So then, one day, when I had particularly too much time on my hands, I read like 10 different posts on ‘How To Create Your Own Blog’, picked a name for it, created an About page, my first blog post and boom – now here we are! 😀

cheers (7)Comment, comment, comment: If you liked someone’s post, let them know! It doesn’t matter whether it is a short and quick “Great post!” or a super long paragraph where you discuss every single detail – I think every blogger appreciates every single comment they get! At least I know that I do! ❤

Commenting on other people’s blogs also helps you to get your name out there and other bloggers might discover your blog and you will get comments in return!

Another thing is to always respond to your comments! I’ve had the experience with 1 or 2 people who never ever responded to any of mine or anyone else’s comments! That just irritated me to no end!

Be yourself: Don’t force yourself to be someone you’re not. If you hate a book that everyone adores, say it! Write that 1 star/DNF review and let people know! If you love participating in weekly memes, go for it! If you’re not into Young Adult, blog about the genre that you love! You are who you are and you have your own opinions and preferences. Don’t look at what other people are doing or try to be like them! And don’t be afraid to speak your mind (as long as you’re not offending anyone). JUST BE YOURSELF! ❤

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Michaela @ Journey into BooksSavannah @ The Book ProphetAngela @ Life of Angela / Darque Dreamer Reads / Christen @ Read by Chris

If you don’t do tags/awards , if you’ve been tagged before or if you simply want to skip this one, feel freet to do so! 😛 And if you WANT to have a go at it, consider yourself tagged!

That’s it for my little pieces of advice! I haven’t been blogging for too long but I hope they were helpful 😛

Thanks for reading!

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What advice would YOU give newbie bloggers? Let’s chat in the comments!


Make sure to answer my poll and help me choose a name for my new blog segment/feature/meme!

Announcement: New Feature/Segment (but I need your help!!!)

First of all, HOW COOL IS THAT GRAPHIC WITH THE EMOJIS THAT I MADE LOL THAT IS ONE OF MY FAVOURITE EMOJIS TO USE!!!!! 😀 😀 😀


IT’S TIME…………………………….

As promised, I am bringing you A NEW ORIGINAL SEGMENT/FEATURE OF MINE!!!! AHHHHHH!!! ❤

Alright, before I reveal anything, let’s dive into a little bit of backstory here;

Ever since I created my blog, maybe even before that, I knew that I wanted to have an original meme/segment/tag WHATEVER of my own but my super uncreative mind just couldn’t come up with something.

Last week, I was quite busy and I was thinking about the million things I still had to do for uni, my blog, life lol and I was scheduling and organising things in my head………. and then it just HIT ME. Like a brick.

Jackie Fangirls.

That name just randomly popped into my head and it stuck there for a while.

So I was thinking: “HEY! This totally reflects me and my personality!” I DO love some healthy fangirling 😀 I tend to get overly excited about (A LOT) of things. I start writing in all caps and use 500 different emojis to express my feelings and emotions. 

So I thought why not turn this into a weekly segment/meme/feature (I don’t know what to call this)! 😀

Whenever I have something, anything to fangirl about, I will post about it! This doesn’t always have to do with books – you can fangirl about TV shows, music, celebrities, a recent meal you had, ANYTHING!

I think it’s a really cool idea!!!!! 😀

But…….. THIS IS WHERE YOU GUYS COME IN!!!!!!

 

QUESTION: Which name do you like better Jackie Fangirls or Fangirl Friday?

 

Jackie Fangirls makes it more personal and I won’t be constricted to post on a certain day in the week! 

Fangirl Friday sounds a lot more neutral/universal and I could turn this into a weekly thing where YOU GUYS can join in! Kind of like a meme! 😀

So tell me which name you like better because I can’t decide! 😀

 

SECOND QUESTION: Would anyone be interested if I actually turned this into a (weekly) feature? Where other bloggers can join? That one would definitely be called Fangirl Friday then to make it more universal 😛

 

And this would be a weekly or bi-weekly, monthly, whenever-you-feel-like-you-need-to-fangirl-about-something thing where everyone just fangirls about whatever they want to fangirl about!

(I will post a more “official” description of this meme, explaining the “rules” or guidelines in my next post if people are actually interested in it.)

So, please tell me if you’d be interested!!! 🙂


And I feel like I have to mention this – I googled “Fangirl Friday” and I’ve seen some people who made this a thing on their blogs, each had a different interpretation of what their own Fangirl Friday is. Pretty much all of the posts I’ve seen were from a couple years ago (like 2013) and their blogs are now abandoned. I don’t want to be accused of being a copy-cat because I literally just googled it like half an hour ago and I had no idea that this existed.

SO would you suggest that I call this Jackie Fangirls just so I’m in the clear??? Or is Fangirl Fridays alright??? Since it’s been abandonded by most of the other bloggers??? And I could like “revive” it?! I’m so insecure and nervous about this lol sorry for asking all these questions 😛

Anyway, that’s it for the announcement for now! Pleeeaasssseeee help me decide by answering my questions! 

My first “Fangirl-post” (depending on what name I will decide upon) will be up on Friday (including an official description, graphics and all…).

Thank you for reading!

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If you’ve already forgotten what the questions were: Which name do you like better JACKIE FANGIRLS or FANGIRL FRIDAY? And would you be interested if I turned this into a weekly features where YOU can join in? That one would have to be called Fangirl Friday then. What about the “copying” thing? Let’s chat in the comments!